I can feel it coming from afar. It is so strange, this process, this journey. Sometimes I am aware of Maya all day, little things stand out for me; a beverage, a website, a flower, anything that has some faint memory, they all are triggers on some days. Today was one of those days. I could feel the wave coming all day. I could feel its inevitability, and I prepared for it all day, knowing I needed to be in a safe space when it arrived. It is the ultimate lesson in mindfulness for me, just being with the feelings, not judging, not analyzing, just watching as they roll in, crush me, and recede.
Maya at Cape Cod, 2014
All I can do is watch, and roll with it. And get up again, and wait. No more, no less.