I had a beautiful awakening this morning that I wanted to share with you. For so long I have been trying to find a way to be, without you here. To assuage the loss, manage the pain. I have been living in the absence of you, holding onto the memories and what we had together, knowing you are gone.
What I did not realize is that although you are not here, I still have you with me. I carry you inside me everywhere. It is so strange, my little one. Yes, when I go to our old spots, I have lovely memories of you, and I miss you. And when I go to new spots, I wish you were there with me. But now I have a third option, a new way of carrying you with me.
I realized that I can still take you with me, to the old spots and the new ones, and I can still experience them with you. You are still here, my sidekick, in my heart, by my side, always…